The Secret of Ella and Micha Chapter 3

EllaI take it thats Micha? Lila wanders well-nigh my kitchen as she tightens a unfreeze ribbon on the waist of her floral dress. Hes veritable(a) cuter than in the picture.Yep, that would be Micha. I strike a box across the maculati unmatchedd lino floor and f mouth the light on. It regards the kindred seventies themed colors, wicker c whiskers around the glass table, and yellow and brown counter cash in atomic number 53s chipss.So upright your atomic number 91 chokes present? Lila circles the small kitchen and her gaze lingers on the countertop next to the kitchen sink where empty bottles argon lining the jetty.Yeah. My older brother locomote egress as shortly as he graduated. I ad unspoilt the handle of my bag and capitulumspring for the stair g everywherenment agency. The house smells standardized rotten food and smoke. In the living elbow room, the conviction-worn plaid sofa is va layaboutt, and the ash tray on the coffee table is spilling oer with cig ato mic number 18tte furtherts. The television is on so I shut it off.So wheres your dad? Lila wonders as we climb up the stairs.Im not convinced(predicate), I forfend the truth, because hes probably at the stripes.Okay, wheres your mom? she probes. You neer told me where she lives.Lila doesnt know much virtually me and its how I motive it. Leaving her in the dark, about my mom, my brother everyone in this aspect of my life has allowed me to transform into soul who doesnt choose to deal with my capers.My dad works nights, I come up to up a story. And my mom moved out quite a while ago. She lives up on chromatic hill.She leans forward to study a portrait of my mother displayed on the wall the same auburn hair, pale skin, and green eye as me. Her grinning was just as fake as mine, too. Is this your mom? She asks and I nod. She looks just like you.My bosom tightens and I quickly trot to the top of the stairway. At the end of the hall, the bathroom entrance is wide point- blank. The corner of the porcelain tub and the stain on the tile floor is in my line of vision. My heart constricts tighter as the memories flood me. Im suffocating with panic.Baby misfire, she express. Im liberation to go take a nap, just for a little while. Ill be back in just a bit.My knees tremble as I shut the door. My chest opens up and oxygen flows through my lungs again.So where does your brother live? Lila peers inside my brothers room full of drums, guitar picks, CDs, and records. Theres a scrollch of band nebs taped to the wall and a guitar up on a mount.I cerebrate in Chicago.You calculate?I shrug. We dont have the best relationship.She nods, like she at a lower placestands. So is he in a band?Im not received if hes still in one now. Im guessing since his stuffs here, probably not, I articulate. He only played because he was friends with Micha and hes in a band. Or was. I have no estimate what he does both to a greater extent than.Ella, did you resort touch with everyone in your life? Lila accuses, tucking the pillow under her arm.Her scrutiny makes me uncomfortable. Avoiding con nominal headation, I turn on my bedroom light and pall at the sight. Its like a museum of my onetime(prenominal). Sheets of my artwork be tacked to the walls, trimmed with a black skeleton border Micha put up when we were twelve to make my room more manly. A collection of guitar picks line the far g all oernment agency and at that head is a pile of my boots in the corner. My bed is made with the same purple comforter and theres a plate with a half-eaten cookie on it, which is ripening mold.I toss the cookie into the chuck out. Hasnt my dad been in here since I left?Lila picks up a guitar and plops see on the bed. I didnt know you played. She positions the guitar on her lap and strums the strings. I unendingly wanted to see how to play, alone my mom would neer let me take lessons. You should t to each one me.I dont play. I drop my bag on the floo r. Thats Michas guitar. His initials are on the back.She turns it over and looks at the initials. So the hot guy from next door is alike a musician. God, Im about to swoon.No swooning over anyone in this neighborhood, I advise. And since when are you into musicians? I have neer, until today, heard you regularise anything about care guys who merchantman play the guitar.Since they look like him. She points over her shoulder toward Michas house, which is in sight through the window of my room. That boy is dripping with sexiness.Jealousy growls in my chest and I mentally whisper for it to shut up. I pick up a word picture of my mom and me at the zoo when I was six. Were happy, smiling, and the sunlight is bright against our squinting eyeball. It rips at my heart and I let the photo fall back onto the desk. Theres a trundle under the bed that you suffer sleep on if you want.Sounds good. She slides the guitar off her lap and goes over to the window, spend a pennying the mante lpiece back. whitethornbe we should go to the party. It looks kind of fun.I gather my hair forward from my eyes before dragging the trundle out from under the bed. No offense, Lila, but I dont think you post handle one of Michas parties. Things rotter get a little bit crazy.She narrows her eyes at me, insulted. I can handle parties. Its you that never wanted to go to any of them. And the ones that I did talk you into handout to, you just stood in the corner, drinking water and sulking.I flop down(p) on the bed with my implements of war and legs slack over the edges. That party is nothing like a college frat party. Theyre the kind of parties you enkindle up from the next day on a park judicial system with no shoes on and a tattoo on your back, with no recollection of what happened the night before.Oh my God, is that how you got that tattoo on your back the one you worsen to make out me what it signifys. She lies on the bed next to me and we stare at the Chevelle poster on my ceiling.It means infinite. I tug the hem of my tank top down, hiding the tattoo on my lower back, and drape my arm over my forehead. And I dont refuse to talk about it. I just cant toy with how I got it.She establishs me a sad, puppy dog face and bats her eyelashes. exquisite please, with a cherry on top. This might be my only come across to go to a party like this. The ones at my old neighborhood consist of limos, fancy dresses and tuxes, and a lot of champagne. When I dont respond, she adds, You owe me.How do you figure?For free you a ride here.Please dont make me go down there, I plead, clasping my hands together. Please.She rolls onto her stomach and props up on her elbows. Hes an old boyfriend, isnt he? You were lying. I knew it. No one can draw a picture like that of someone theyve never cheatd.Micha and I have never dated. I insist with a heavy sigh. If you real want to go see what these parties are all about, Ill take you down there, but Im not hanging around for more than five minutes. I give in because deep down Im curious to check up on the world I left behind.She claps her hands animatedly and squeals, looking out the window one last time. Holy crap. Someones standing on the roof.They say curiosity killed the cat. Come on, party little girl. Lets get this over with.***About cardinal years ago, this town used to be a decent agency to live. Then the factory that supplied jobs to almost the entire town shut down. mess were laid off and slowly it began to dwindle into the bottomless pit that it is now. The houses across the street are painted in graffiti and Im pretty sure my next door neighbor makes moonshine in his garage, or at least he did before I left.Inside Michas house, there are people loitering in the entryway. I ram my way through them and into the kitchen, which is crammed with even more people. On the table is a kegger and enough bottles of alcohol to open a liquor store. The atmosphere is overflowing with the scent of swea t and there are a hardly a(prenominal) girls dancing on the kitchen counters. People are making out in the corners of the living room where the sofas are shoved to the side, so the band can flare on their instruments, screaming lyrics of pain and misinterpret at the top of their lungs. Im surprised Micha isnt up there playing.Holy crap. This is Lilas blue eyes are round as she gawks at the people bound up and down in the living room, shaking their bodies and thrashing their heads. corresponding a mosh pit, I finish for her, shoving a short girl with bleached hair out of my way.Hey, the girl whines as her drink spills down the front of her leather dress. You did that on purpose.For a roue second, I immobilise who I am and turn around to blast her with a finis glare. But therefore I remember that Im the calm and rational Ella one that doesnt get into fights and beat other girls up.What, preppy girl? She pats her chest, fast to throw down. You think you scare me.Lila bites her thumbnail. Were sorry. She didnt mean to.Chants fill the living room and the chaos is giving me a headache. Sorry, I strain an apology and squeeze between her and the wall.She snickers at me and her friends join in with her laughter as they sashay to the back door. It takes everything I have not to turn around and tackle her to the floor.Lila makes a beeline for the bar set up on the counter, dumps a drop of vodka into a cup, and mixes it with a splash of orange juice. Okay, that was intense. I thought she was going to kick your ass.Welcome to Star Grove. I shout over the music. The Land of the intensified and Poverty-stricken, where the adolescents roam free without sober parental supervision and try to arrest fights wherever they can.She laughs, takes a gulp of her drink, and her face pinches at the bitterness. Try She starts, wherefore coughs. She pounds her hand against her chest.Are you going to make it? I ask. Lila has never been a big drinker.She nods and clears her thr oat. I was going to say try growing up where you have to get permission to wear a certain mode of shoes. I give her a mystified look and she adds, If it wasnt up to my mothers swish fashion standards I wasnt allowed to wear it.I edge out of the way of a guy with blotchy skin and a beanie cover his head, who doesnt seem to mind that he knocks his shoulder into mine. Im sure it wasnt that bad growing up where you did. I mean, at least there was some control.Yeah, there was, she says uneasily and her eyes quickly scan the room. I cant believe theres a live band. Its like creation at an outside concert.What? They dont have live bands in California? I joke with a small smile as I pour myself a cup of water. Ones that take place outside?She stirs her drink with a straw. not these kinds of bands. Think much more mellow, with a stage and seats to watch.Sounds like fun to me. I defend a smile and coup doeil at my watch. Are you about ready to go?Are you joking? Sucking the drink out of the straw, she record hop on the counter and crosses her legs. We just got here. wherefore would we want to go? In fact, we should go dance.My eyes find the living room, where a guy with dreads smashes his head against the glass plate of a cabinet in the corner and everyone cheers.You can if you want, but Im good. I gulp my water. I like all my castanets intact.Leaning against the counter, I scan through the crowd, curious to see where Micha is. I dont know why Im so curious, but I am. Occasionally he would bail on his own parties, either to hook up or just get some quiet. I found him a tally of multiplication hiding out on a lawn chair. Each time, he would pull me onto his lap and we would stare up at the night sky, talking about an unreachable future.I spot him in the corner, sitting on the couch with his arm draped around some blonde girl with boobs popping out of her dress. His hair hangs in his eyes and hes nibbling at his lip ring, driving the girl crazy Im sure. Theyre ju st talking, but the girl keeps flipping her hair off her shoulder and her hand is on his chest. Its hard to tell if Michas enjoying her caller or not. He was always difficult to read when it came to girls because he never really looked interested in any of them, but sometimes he would end up with them for the night.I asked him about it once and he said it was all fun, but that he was just killing time until I gave into my inner desire to be with him. I tackled him to the ground for it and it made him laugh.Why do you have that look on your face? Like youre undressing someone with your eyes? Lila asks, following my gaze. Oh, is that My eyes dart from Micha. I wasnt looking at anyone, just the madness in the living room.Yeah, right, she says, elevating her eyebrows. You totally want him. I can see it on your face.Well, Ill be damned if it isnt the infamous Ella May Ethan Gregory grins from the other side of the counter, just behind Lila. He stumbles around the corner, to the highes t degree clipping his head on the low ceiling. Before I can respond, he has me trapped in an awkward hug with his long arms that are tracked with tattoos. His grey shirt smells like an ash tray and his glimmering like beer. He pulls back, ruffling his black hair with his fingers. Does Micha know youre here in his house?I lie breezily, very aware of where Micha is and what hes doing. Im pretty sure he cut me walk in.I doubt that. Hes been looking for you for the past eight months. He glances over his shoulder and nods at Lila, then tips in toward me. You know hes been a wreck ever since you took off. You really fucked up his head, Ella.Thats such(prenominal) a lie, I tell him. Ethan and I have never really gotten along very well, which is why the hug confused me so much. We two had the same blunt attitude and butted heads a lot. The only reason we were friends at all was because of Micha. Although, there was one time we did bond for a split second, but we never talk about it. Mich a doesnt fall apart over anyone. I know him conk out than that.His face is flushed and his brown eyes are bloodshot. I guess you dont know him as well as you think then, because hes been a wreck. In fact, all hes done for the last few months is search for you.Which explains the party, I retort. Im guessing that classifies as that.First one in five months, he says. And I think he only did it because he found out where you were and leaded a distraction.I know him better than you do, Ethan, and he doesnt fall apart over girls, I say, but suck up at the fact that I might not know him anymore. A lot can happen in eight months. Hey, Lila, we should go. Its getting late.She glances at her diamond encrusted Rolex and rolls her eyes. Its like nine thirty.Youre leaving already? He waves his hand in the air. Thats nonsense talk right there. You havent even seen Micha til now and hes gonna be super pissed if he misses seeing you, especially since you ran forth from him in the driveway.Actu ally, I think were going to hang out for a little while longer, Lila presses with unrelenting eyes. She mouths, hes hot. Then she fastens her hands together. Please, Ella. Pretty please.Ethan isnt Lilas type. Hes got baggage almost as heavy as mine. I start to differ when Michas deep voice floats over my shoulder and tickles my skin like feathers. Without being able to help it, I let out a loco moan.Yeah, pretty girl, stay a little longer. Hes so attached that the heating of his body kisses my skin and my insides tremor. His fingers comb through my hair as he whispers, You smell so good. God Ive missed your smell.I have to get up really early in the morning. I clear my throat and Lilas eyebrows furrow. I need to go home and get some sleep.He places his hand on the counter, so the crook of his arm is touching my hip. You can keep trying to avoid me, he breathes in my ear, taking a nip at my earlobe. But sooner or later youre going to have to talk to me. His breath reeks of beer a nd his clothes of smoke.Refusing to crack at the dense of his sexy voice, I turn and face him. I dont have time to get drunk and act like a moron.Hes even more gorgeous under the light and more irresistible, even though his eyes are glossed over. Its your fault Im drunk you drive me crazy. He descends his voice to a soft purr, the same voice hes used on me many times to get what he wants the voice that makes me feel alive inside. Baby, come on. Please. We need to talk. He leans in to kiss me.The suddenness throws me off balance and I trip over my own feet. Micha, stop it. I gently push him back and he staggers into the edge of the counter. Youre drunk. And Im going home.Shes acting weird like shes way too calm, Ethan remarks, with a wave of his finger. And shes dressed funny, like that girl we use to go to school with. Whats her name? He snaps his fingers. Stacy. StacyHarris, I say exhausted. And I look like a girl that went aside to college and grew up.Lila slants forward. Ell as been this way since Ive known her, but Im really curious what she used to look like with the way everyone keeps talking about her because I cant picture her any other way besides this.Micha and Ethan trade drunken looks and then wail with laughter. The room quiets down a little as people glance in our direction.Whats so funny? Lila frowns and looks to me for help. Im so lost.Nothing. They just think theyre funny. I dodge around Micha, but he seizes my elbow and hauls me back against his chest. Hey relax, baby. He kisses my forehead and gives me his innocent face. Please dont go. I just got you back.Before I took off, the boundaries of our friendship were start to blur. I thought time would fix this, but it seems like were back to where we started. As much as I would love to melt into him, it just cant happen. I cant open up like that and lose control. I need control.No ones got me back. Im just here for summer encounter and only because I didnt have money to rent an apartment, I say and his expression falls. The Ella you knew is gone. She died on that bridge eight months ago.He blinks, as ball over as I am. His lips part then he clasps them shut, struck speechless.I didnt mean that, I say quickly. Im sorry, Micha. I just cant deal with this.Dont be sorry for being real, he says, rubbing his forehead with the back of his hand.I force the lump in my throat down. Im sorry, I say again, and then weave through the crowd and out the back door, inhaling the fresh air.Whats your problem? Lila asks as she catches up with me at the edge of my driveway. She squashes her plastic cup and tosses it into the trash can on the back porch. Im so confused. What just happened?I involve to get out of there before I lost it. I dont slow down until Im in my room where I close the door and shut the window, locking away the world. I sigh back against the wall, ventilating system in the quiet.Lila watches me with inquisitiveness as she pulls her hair back into a bun and puts s ome lip gloss on. Ethan and Micha act like you used to be someone else. Like this isnt the real you. Want to explain?Not really. I push away from the door and collect some pajamas from the duffel bag. Im going to go take a shower. Do you need anything from downstairs?Yeah, for you to tell me why those guys have you so frazzled. She unclips her watch and tosses it into her purse thats on the bed. Ive never seen you so worked up like that. You basically had an orgasm when you first saw him.I did not, I say, embarrassed and annoyed. And you havent seen me that worked up because Im not that person anymore. demur for when youre around him, she insinuates. When you were talking to him, there was something in your eyes Ive never seen before. You were always so closed off to all the guys at parties and in school. Honestly, I thought you were a virgin. But the way you and Micha were looking at each other youve had sex with him, right?Pressing my lips together, I tuck my pajamas under my arm , and shake my head. No, Micha and Ive never slept together, just like weve never dated. But weve been friends since we were kids.She sits down on the bed and unhooks her sandal. But youve had sex before?I rick in my skin. Im going to go get ready for bed.Whoa, wait a second. She leaps off the bed wearing one shoe and jumps in front of the door with her hands spread out to the side. Are you saying that youve never had sex? Ever.I struggle for words shell understand. Its not like I havent because I dont believe in premarital sex or anything. I just Look theres a lot you dont know about me and sometimes I have a hard time getting close to people.Shes not surprised. Well, obviously. Thats totally been a given from day one.What do you mean? I question. Ive never told anyone that before. Not even Micha.It means sometimes I can see right through you. She sighs and counts down on her fingers. Ive been your roomie for eight months and all I know about you is youre focused on school, you h ate to drink, hate being around large crowds, and have never went on a date. I barely know you and being here, Im starting to wonder if I know you at all.She knows the Ella I want her to know. canful you let me by? Im really tired.She gives me a disbelieving look, but doesnt press. She stairs aside and lets me by. Relief washes over me because I dont want to get into it with her. Not tonight. Not ever. I never want to get into the night that changed my life. I buried my reckless identity, and I wont dig it up again.